Up late studying. I can submit the assessment due tomorrow midnight, so that’s all g.
I’ll prolly get extensions for the other two, just so I have some classtime with the teachers so they can check my work. I’m a bit freaked out but also I’ll be okay and I’ll pass; I’m not stupid, I just need some data I can only get from going in, so that’s all g too.
I swear I’m a totally cool cucumber rn 👀😬😅
The sleep worked better than expected. Sometimes I struggle a lot sleeping that early. But I managed to doze up about 7:30, woke up briefly at 9ish, then had a solid sleep until 3:30
We’re taking the really really long way to Adelaide, going via Mount Gambier, then driving up along the Vic/SA border through Penola and Naracoorte up to Bordertown, then we’re taking the standard A8 into Adelaide
Nothing specific planned for tomorrow, so we can have a good recovery day. Might head to the National Railway Museum in Port Adelaide
Can’t sleep. Miniest was upset before bed about how one day we’ll all be dead and she’ll be the only one left for a while. Pretty heavy stuff and she was crying and wanted to be hugged to sleep. I comforted her and told her about how when you’re young death’s hard to fathom because you haven’t started really living yet. How it’s like before you were born when there was nothing because you had no consciousness, but once you have consciousness it’s hard to stomach losing it. How it’s like for me in a way, with my parents and grandparents dead and my siblings are all half siblings who are much older. And I worry about the same thing but the opposite way around, that one day I’ll be dead and you kids will be on your own without me to care and protect and advise. Then she told me she’d like to travel and particularly go to America because there’s some really cool food she’d like to eat there, but it’s full of racists and idiots and guns so it’s probably not a place she’ll go. Then she fell asleep and I’m thinking too much now I guess.
Oh jeez that’s a difficult conversation to have for both of you.
Aw hugs peeler 🫂
I don’t think that fear ever goes away, we just bury it because it doesn’t really benefit us to dwell on it.
I remember having a similar meltdown when I was child for the same reasons, I think it’s pretty normal, though I say that while not having kids, and I’ve heard heaps of stories from my mates and family about the big feelings they felt as kids when they contemplated death.
It’s freaky, and occasionally I still freak out about it. But again, I think that’s normal as long as it isn’t all-consuming and paralysing. I hope you can get some restful sleep soon, friend, and miniest has good, happy dreams 💜
Melbcat is curled into me with her head on my shoulder. Beautiful little baby.
I have no life - I did this US states quiz until I got 50/50
Oof 30/50. I know nothing! 😂
Better than me, I only managed 28/50 😅 Once the answers came up I did know the rest, but could I think of them when doing the quiz? Not a chance.
Fucking VERMONT 😭 I knew it when I saw it at the end, but I was sitting there like “vvvvvv… VVVVVVV-SOMETHING”
And those flyover states 🤦🏼♀️
