Can’t sleep. Miniest was upset before bed about how one day we’ll all be dead and she’ll be the only one left for a while. Pretty heavy stuff and she was crying and wanted to be hugged to sleep. I comforted her and told her about how when you’re young death’s hard to fathom because you haven’t started really living yet. How it’s like before you were born when there was nothing because you had no consciousness, but once you have consciousness it’s hard to stomach losing it. How it’s like for me in a way, with my parents and grandparents dead and my siblings are all half siblings who are much older. And I worry about the same thing but the opposite way around, that one day I’ll be dead and you kids will be on your own without me to care and protect and advise. Then she told me she’d like to travel and particularly go to America because there’s some really cool food she’d like to eat there, but it’s full of racists and idiots and guns so it’s probably not a place she’ll go. Then she fell asleep and I’m thinking too much now I guess.
Oh jeez that’s a difficult conversation to have for both of you.
Give her a hug
and tell her America is also full of nice cool people who make the kid’s shows she loves
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It’s one of those “falling asleep patting the cat” nights. Goodnight all ❤️
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Saturday Weather: Is hot
Saturday Me: Let’s spend ALL day working in the yard without so much as a lunch a break, lopping trees and shovelling compost and mulch and taking a massive trailer load of junk to the tip!
Sunday Weather: Is rainy and a bit muggy
Sunday Me: Even though it’s raining, let’s keep going cleaning up more after yesterday’s activities and filling up another trailer load!!!
Today Me: You idiot. Everything hurts. I hate you.
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Thanks!! Unfortunately I’m already back at work this morning and it’s gonna be a funnnnn week, but we’ll get there!!
Ha I’ve made that same mistake before… ‘Oh wow look at how many books I can fit in this bad boy, I am a packing genius!!’. Then you go to MOVE the box and ohhhhhhhno :D
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small boxes and use a trolley
Massive lovely win for today: blood test results back in record time, everything’s good, new MH plan and a really nice chilled out chat with the Dr… and he bulk billed me!!! Ahhh!!! That’s like Christmas come early these days given that the gap fee is like 60 (70 after 5pm).
…I hate how American that sounds, having to jump for joy at cheaper healthcare based onto the whim of someone else :(
Have been craving mee goreng something heinous this afternoon so treating myself to a nice spicy bowl on Victoria St. This place is always legit. I am riding the high of Nice Things until I can get my kitchen sorted our very soon…
yum
E: saw my old place listed for sale barely a week after I moved out. Well, I’m glad that they’re genuinely selling it and not trying to get new tenants at higher prices. LL better be grateful that I’ve let her get it on the market so quickly and at a good time of the year…
That does look good!
I think you’ve inspired me to try my hand at a mee goreng recipe tomorrow.
I have to admit after seeing that photo I nearly booked up some egg noodles and mixed random sauces together.
I caved and went for frankfurts with bread instead.
Some people need to either get to the point or shut the fuck up in meetings seriously.
Some people need to
either get to the point orshut the fuck upin meetings seriously.get to the point
This I very much agree with.
just got off a call where I was that guy. Could hear myself rambling but got nowhere.
I have a problem with overthinking about things and events that occur or may occur as a result of something.
It’s definitely one of the things that gives me a great amount of stress and anxiety.
I keep thinking about things and the possibilities and sometimes bad or unpleasant things that happen stay in my mind for quite awhile.
I don’t quite know how to handle those feelings and what I should do.
It’s been suggested that I just move past things and forget, or distract myself to take my mind off of things or I be more stubborn about my own feelings and harden up?
There’s been other things, like for example I followed all the steps and did things as soon as I realised or possible and I still get blamed for not doing it soon enough and copped some barbed words, I know it wasn’t my fault but still it bothers me. (That was what I was stressing about)
There’s possibly more to come in the future as the problem hasn’t come close to be resolved and I hope I don’t keep thinking about what might happen.
Apologies for the rant.
This is very human behaviour, totally normal.
What helps me with this specifically is saying “What if it all works out?” or the similar inverse of whatever your worry is. “I might fuck up my interview and say something dumb” becomes “What if we get on so well, they toss out their questions and we just start chatting like old friends?”
It’s not like 🕉️ woowoo positive ✨ mantras ✨and manifestation stuff. It’s literally tricking you brain to make good chemicals instead of bad ones.
For awhile I spent some time with just a movie on in the background and I was scrolling through some happy posts.
Then I distracted myself with some food and a few rounds of Balatro.
Looking for something else to do for a bit then I’ll head to bed.
I think it’s just a bunch of bad stuff happening lately all at once that’s making me feel overwhelmed.
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Some aspects of it seems to describe me.
I do get hung up about events that make me feel crap or if I treat someone badly but in some ways I make peace with it that I have a conscience and knowingly think about my actions and recognise what to treat and be treated appropriately.
I still get blamed for not doing it soon enough and copped some barbed words, I know it wasn’t my fault but still it bothers me.
what would bother me is not my performance but the person blaming me , that’s where I would put my focus
a mature and nice person doesn’t blame others for events out their control
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It took me so long to start thinking like this but my last boss woke me up to this fact. I have such infinitely better managers now and I could almost laugh at how hard I tried to please unreasonable people.
I think I used to be like that too. I would feel terribly puzzled as I objectively knew I was doing ok. It’s so hard to accept that other people might not be truthful and might even be mean. I think mean people rely on that.
And it’s not naivete when we are in situations where we should reasonably expect to trust people to be good, to think it’s naivete is blaming the victim. I wouldn’t trust a stranger but people I know or work with, then I should be able to.
The blame is on them for exploiting a work relationship.
I know he’s an asshole but it doesn’t really make me feel any better about it sometimes.
same
I hope that job I interviewed for last week calls me back 🤞🏾
It’d be great leverage.
LolLet’s hope for good news man
Sort of fucked up yesterday.
Had ‘a go’ at the ol’ man about the way he’s trying to tackle his little fence dispute (on top of everything else). Basically long winded combative emails to the neighbour. Problem is the neighbour appears to have literacy issues judging by the way he writes (so they need to be short and to the point).
Anyway so when you have a go, let’s just say he’s not the sort of person that will take criticism.
So he stood up, calmly said he’s going for a walk. That shit never happens it’s always far more heated.
On the one hand I shouldn’t have done that right now and just let it be, on the other it shows where his head is with respect to mum’s issues. It’s a completely unrelated issue (a fence and medical stuff) but it definitely says something.
I have no idea how to support someone like him emotionally through this (not the fence but mum heh). He’s got a bunch of garden / house shit he’s doing which is his ‘escape’ but I can tell it’s really taking its toll.
You are both under stress and it will happen. Don’t dwell on it. Maybe a quiet “Sorry if I came across harsh over the fence thing, let me know if you need anything” and move on.
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Isn’t it lovely when you meet someone truly positive! There’s something about trains and train stations - it seems to bring out the best in people. Naracoorte has wunnderful caves - full to busting with fossils of thylacaleos and diprotodons and other cool stuff. If your itinerary permits, a visit to the caves is a MUST! Or a second visit just to do that …
EDIT: forgot to mention the mihirungs. Which are awesome. @AlamutJones’s Chook would be jealous.
the caves are awesome , I had a look online and the parks have really improved the experience , looks so cool now, when I went it was basically go in the cave and a guide would give a talk
i took young miss seagoon many years ago
One of my all time favorite experiences. Loved it.
cool 🙂 the southwest/and South Australia is a lovely place to visit
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Mihirungs are walloping great mega duck like birds. Like really really big. Extinct, which is a pity. Sometimes called thunder birds or demon ducks. Up to 3 metres tall with ginormous beaks.
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I had a meeting with the general manager who’s leaving. He admitted we have too much work.
So I’m going to my manager this week and talking to her. At this stage, to keep up, I’d have to be working outside of office hours. And that isn’t happening.
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yeah there has gotta be some sort of compromise here hey. they cant give you too much work then complain your not meeting the impossible goals they set.
Finally managed to get a hold of one of my friends.
Been an unlucky day where I’ve been able to reach anyone.
Just talking a little bit on the phone helped me a little bit with my stress and anxiety.
I’m so grateful to be able to do that but I hope he’ll be able to call me back to talk more as I know he’s been busy.
hugs, a cup of tea and a gentle shoulder rub , if that’s not too forward
Thank you.
That sounds very nice. Wish I could have those things.
I’ve been dancing with my cat and singing ‘When you’re a Jet’ from West Side Story, but swapping it to ‘When you’re a Cat’. I’m sure he loves it.
💞
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I wish to emulate this cucumbers coolness
Reminds me of this - Coo Cumba https://youtu.be/RlLTtnV_DzM
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Damn, that wheel looks fucked! I’d be so anxious about driving on the spare for that long (I had to drive on mine recently for like 15kms here and there all up and was having kittens). Fingers crossed no more potholes here on out and that you can get a new wheel soon!
No pretty sunset out here, too foggy
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bit moist
checks weather
100% humiditysounds about right
Air so thick, you can see it
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