Sounds like real event OCD. What’s worse is when you did do something objectively NQR, but you can’t move on from it and you spiral over the potential consequences.
I do get hung up about events that make me feel crap or if I treat someone badly but in some ways I make peace with it that I have a conscience and knowingly think about my actions and recognise what to treat and be treated appropriately.
Sounds like real event OCD. What’s worse is when you did do something objectively NQR, but you can’t move on from it and you spiral over the potential consequences.
It is a fresh hell.
https://calocd.com/2021/08/05/dealing-with-real-event-ocd/
Some aspects of it seems to describe me.
I do get hung up about events that make me feel crap or if I treat someone badly but in some ways I make peace with it that I have a conscience and knowingly think about my actions and recognise what to treat and be treated appropriately.