Can’t sleep. Miniest was upset before bed about how one day we’ll all be dead and she’ll be the only one left for a while. Pretty heavy stuff and she was crying and wanted to be hugged to sleep. I comforted her and told her about how when you’re young death’s hard to fathom because you haven’t started really living yet. How it’s like before you were born when there was nothing because you had no consciousness, but once you have consciousness it’s hard to stomach losing it. How it’s like for me in a way, with my parents and grandparents dead and my siblings are all half siblings who are much older. And I worry about the same thing but the opposite way around, that one day I’ll be dead and you kids will be on your own without me to care and protect and advise. Then she told me she’d like to travel and particularly go to America because there’s some really cool food she’d like to eat there, but it’s full of racists and idiots and guns so it’s probably not a place she’ll go. Then she fell asleep and I’m thinking too much now I guess.
I don’t think that fear ever goes away, we just bury it because it doesn’t really benefit us to dwell on it.
I remember having a similar meltdown when I was child for the same reasons, I think it’s pretty normal, though I say that while not having kids, and I’ve heard heaps of stories from my mates and family about the big feelings they felt as kids when they contemplated death.
It’s freaky, and occasionally I still freak out about it. But again, I think that’s normal as long as it isn’t all-consuming and paralysing. I hope you can get some restful sleep soon, friend, and miniest has good, happy dreams 💜
Can’t sleep. Miniest was upset before bed about how one day we’ll all be dead and she’ll be the only one left for a while. Pretty heavy stuff and she was crying and wanted to be hugged to sleep. I comforted her and told her about how when you’re young death’s hard to fathom because you haven’t started really living yet. How it’s like before you were born when there was nothing because you had no consciousness, but once you have consciousness it’s hard to stomach losing it. How it’s like for me in a way, with my parents and grandparents dead and my siblings are all half siblings who are much older. And I worry about the same thing but the opposite way around, that one day I’ll be dead and you kids will be on your own without me to care and protect and advise. Then she told me she’d like to travel and particularly go to America because there’s some really cool food she’d like to eat there, but it’s full of racists and idiots and guns so it’s probably not a place she’ll go. Then she fell asleep and I’m thinking too much now I guess.
Oh jeez that’s a difficult conversation to have for both of you.
Aw hugs peeler 🫂
I don’t think that fear ever goes away, we just bury it because it doesn’t really benefit us to dwell on it.
I remember having a similar meltdown when I was child for the same reasons, I think it’s pretty normal, though I say that while not having kids, and I’ve heard heaps of stories from my mates and family about the big feelings they felt as kids when they contemplated death.
It’s freaky, and occasionally I still freak out about it. But again, I think that’s normal as long as it isn’t all-consuming and paralysing. I hope you can get some restful sleep soon, friend, and miniest has good, happy dreams 💜