Today’s weather forecast (Melbourne CBD, 3000): min - 19°C, max - 27°C. 25% chance of at least 5mm rain
Every queen has her throne
Tonight’s wave
Wasn’t going to go but glad I did. Not a soul on that beach.
Time to find a new doctor. She refuses to give repeats and now won’t take any calls. My script runs out Friday.
Yay.
This is degusting behaviour, and directly puts your health at risk. I am personally petty enough to make a complaint if it happened to me.
Yeah I’m done. Tomorrow morning I’m organising a new doctor. I’m considering putting in a complaint to be honest.
Without that medicine I can’t function.
I’ve accepted this in the past, but not this year. Not when the stakes are so high.
Resisting the urge to send so many Please Explain messages. Somebody staple my phone shut?
Update: vendor conveyancer has been fired! Regrettably not literally out of a trebuchet. Alas.
You want some lead time between dismissal and trebuchet anyway. Gives you plausible deniability
you can guarantee the list of people/suspects who would want to trebuchet her is long
Can we trail her entrails for longer?
Entrails open up the possibility of a yoyo like arrangement.
The cats would probably like this concept
Diet is dieting, many of my clothes don’t fit any more, pants are way too big, but I still have some old stuff that I am too big for and that doesn’t fit yet
i might do this diet another 6 months and see how i go 🙂
Good on you! At least you’re eating sensibly, unlike various people I know who are doing this strictly carnivore diet (which, based on their description, sounds to me like a recipe for constipation, high cholesterol and heart failure). Go Seagoon! 💪🏼
I’m eating more fruit now too. 🙂 but I still have the occasional bad food, like 2 vegie spring rolls for late lunch.
Proud of you goonsy!
Thank you. 😭
Channel 9 are pissing me off on so many fronts. For one, do they realise that just because it’s called the Australian Open doesn’t mean that they can only televise Australians? They’re showing Tomljanovic on two channels ffs.
And then there’s the relentless advertising for the horrific-looking Married At First Sight, I’m ready to sanction torture for anyone involved in the conception and production of that show.
I like tennis but I might just give up and read a book.
If you can stomach using their website, they have all the other matches streaming love through their website.
Nice rain, good for an early night (if I can wrangle it; more melatonin incoming). Had TWO! coffees but still zombie mode all day.
All day in the field tomoz which is good while it’s cool. Might get some blood circulating.
Today’s challenge is not looking at the phone while going to sleep and maybe continuing this ebook I’m reading (The Wind Knows My Name) instead.
Super pumped for Severence s2 premiering on Friday. I might binge watch S1 on the weekend first as it’s been so long and there are so many detail
E: sudden and inconvenient craving for real tempeh. With kecap manis and kang kung on the side. Might be time to visit Laguna on the weekend
sounds delicious 🙂
Totoro & Mr Lemur wish to send squishies to everybody who needs them today
my friends . 🙂
Our two tier health care system is doing my head in right now.
No private, means I could wait up to two years for a small procedure.
Getting private now, means I’m waiting 12 months before my coverage kicks in.
Going private without insurance could costs me upwards of 10k (which we don’t have).
Some days I hate what’s become of this country.
What does it cost in Thailand?
Around 5k with flights. Definitely considering that option. I’ve also been bombarding MPs and Senators with inquires about our current state of Medicare. Won’t do much, but makes me feel better.
I got the anxiety today fuck. Heart beating like drum, a sinking feeling in my gut as if something awful is coming, my brain won’t shut up.
tw cptsd and trauma, very long personal rant
I think that article yesterday really fucked me up. Putting aside my sentimentality of the books I have, and how I feel about him, I think I’ve just been so very triggered. I have too many memories to pull from, from childhood to late-20s, like my brain can’t pick which memory to torture me with so it’s just sending them all to the front.
And with it all, is the self-blame; as if I deserved it all. That I wasn’t a good enough daughter, or girlfriend, and that I deserved the abuse. Which I know is ridiculous, I would never ever think that of someone else’s trauma, but I beat myself up for my own trauma. Which doesn’t help anyone or anything. Why should I continue to perpetuate the abuse against myself? I don’t deserve it. But it’s been so hardwired in my neurons that I do deserve it, by my abusers, that undoing those pathways is exhausting. It’s somehow easier to let myself down, than to pull myself through it.
I keep thinking about my mum telling me I’m just like my father, that I’m a terrible daughter and friend (which is gross, she was my mum but she treated me like her trauma therapist). My ex telling me that if I wasn’t such a terrible person then they wouldn’t have to hurt me to teach me.
And I can recognise how wild and foul that all is. I can see it, but somehow I haven’t been able to internalise that it isn’t my fault, I didn’t ask for or want any of that. I needed help.
And it all comes back to how disconnected I am from dad and that side of the family. How I feel like a failure, a black sheep who can’t seem to get it together. My mother preferred my cousin (mum’s brother’s daughter), because she believed in that woo woo stuff. How dad seemed to have a close father-daughter relationship with his sisters daughter. And I’m just the only child left to rot. But I also know that no one can save me but myself. I just wish I had a family member I could talk to about this, that would hug me and tell me it’s okay, that I’m loved and worth it. But Dad said that to my cousin, mum said that to her niece.
Who do I belong to? Where is my family? I just want my dad to tell me he loves me.
And maybe it’s up to me to open that line of communication to him, but I also want him to reach out to me and ask me to talk to him. I want to feel like a daughter who’s father loves her. That I’m not a failure to him. So much of that has to do with mum driving us apart due to her own unresolved trauma, but he’s my dad and I want him to ask me to open up to him. And don’t get me wrong, dad has helped me financially since I left my ex, but I don’t want that to be the foundation of our relationship. Money can drive a family apart. I want to feel loved.
I’m an only child, and went through it all alone. What do my cousins have that I don’t? Why do I feel so left out and left behind?
What have I done so wrong?
YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON.
YOU ARE AN INTELLIGENT PERSON.
You ARE A TALENTED PERSON.
YOU ARE NOT WRONG.
that is what you have done wrong
everything they have told you is the opposite of reality
hugs, you are with people who know and love you now. 😘😘😘
💜💜💜
That’s a lot to carry. And it can be really hard to give yourself the kind of grace and gentleness you give others.
Maybe a walk would help slow things down?
Sending you loads of love and kindness. I’m glad you can recognise what your brain is doing, but brains are bloody hard things to reprogram. I hope you can take some time for yourself and do something kind for yourself that will bring you a little bit of peace and joy. You are very loved by this lovely little corner of the internet!
🧸
Hugs. I hope you’re doing alright. You’ll get through this just like you have everything else
pet illness
Geoffrey here (yep that’s his name) is my aunt’s dog who’s going to be 8 this year. My aunt lived with us for some of his life, so my family developed a close bond with him. When my aunt lived with us, G would get really excited when we came home and sprint to us.
Lately, he hasn’t been his usual self. We thought it was just old-ish age and he was mellowing out. But today, my aunt found a lump under his armpit, and now the vet are testing it to see if it’s the big C.
Hoping it’s nothing.
Hugs 💜
🖤
Hoping for the best! Fantastic your aunt found the lump though, many owners don’t know how to feel for that sort of thing (not disparaging owners ofc! That’s what a vet is there for!) so it sounds like it has been caught early. 8 years is relatively young for a small/medium breed (8 is old for large breeds), so there’s a real good chance Geoffrey can pull through. 💜💜Sending you my love and good positive thoughts! 💜 He is very loved, it is so apparent!
so many hugs and best wishes
Fingers crossed it’s something easily treatable and Geoffrey will be back to his happy self soon. He’s a very handsome boy with a lovely name.
Annnnd theres a trespasser at dandenong. Poor pakey/cranbourne cant catch a break. I’m going to complain to my member of parliament. Hey! Gus! I got something to report to ya!
how fuckin hard is it to put up a fence?!
I just think trains shouldn’t stop or slow down. Hose off the cartilage and viscera at night and she’ll be right.
People should not be delayed and inconvenienced because of fuckwits.
I am a strong strong proponent. Either we take this shit seriously, get these people proper help! OR we stop pretending to care and fit the trains with a blender attachment on the front. I was stuck on one for 45 minutes once 10m short of the station. We FINALLY arrive at the station, only to have to wait another 20 minutes cause the person got BACK on the tracks!
This happens regularly around Footscray and Sunshine. It’s either junkies or people with clear mental health issues.
I’m not saying we shouldn’t take care of our most vulnerable, but when does the burden on society end?
i mean, it should probably start with proper mental health services, But for some reason thats unconscionable.
what if they aren’t mentally ill, what if they are just cunts who like to create drama?
arrested for disruption of public services.
reality TV prison.
This is the way.
To be fairish it is occasionally a kangaroo. But we all know what that alert means.
Natural selection
If a person sees train tracks and first instinct is to walk on them…maybe, just maybe, we might be better off without them.
Young children notwithstanding, then it’s on the parents.
the problem is bone bits get between the points
Once a few trains pass over it’ll be ground into a slurry I would imagine. Might smell for a day or two, but could also feed the local fauna!
win-win?
the big bone bits are the problem , they stop trains shunting
One of the houses I looked at recently was right by the train. Zero fence. One could have a couple of brews go for a smoke and trip over the line. Not ideal.
That sucks man. My line has frequent “police action”. Yay.
inaction more like
Accidentally left a plate out with some leftover hawt sauce on it last night. Ants ate it. I had no idea ants like chilli. They were walking around slowly in circles looking a bit confused. So had to internets it: They do eat chilli but it makes them confused because it masks their scent trail lol.
you’re lucky, a bunch found a cum rag once in our house. That was a delight.
(not. sooo not)
🤣 They aren’t fussy are they.
Titlegross story and drug usespoiler
I remember many years ago a group of us were walking to the 7-11 after smoking an enthusiastic and excessive amount of bongs. One guy coughed up a large chunk of phlegm and spat it out. We were all like, “ew, Jesus dude!” On our way back from the 7-11 we noticed that the ants had got to it and were eating it.
Depending on the type of sauce there could be a bunch of sugar in there as well
Aw poor babies. I know they sometimes enter what’s known as a death spiral, where they follow each others scent until eventually they all die. Not sure if this would cause the same thing, or they’d eventually snap out of it
Flat clean. Lovely coffee meetup with a friend.
Today’s off to a good start
I’m contemplating getting my hair cut. I do need one…
whats the hurdle to getting it done? Almost as good as a holiday! love that razor down the back of the neck.
Get a pink mohawk, for funsies.
