You’ve probably heard all the motivational shit that gets peddled in such situations. One thing that has stuck with me over the years, is that the best songs are about failures. Very few decent songs about successes. Seems to me that failure is nothing to be afraid of - it’s liberating and creative. And puts an end to that particular fear. You have already found out how crippling fear can be. Failure is nothing compared to that. Go forth and give whatever it is a reasonable shot.

How do you know if you’re good at something or enjoy doing something if you never give it a go? I say to you fuck it. Do it. You might like it.

I believe there is nothing more liberating than saying “fuck it” before doing something. Like you touched on, it’s accepting what happens next, rather than not bothering because of the potential of failure. You’ve got this, man.

“Feel the fear and do it anyway” I think that is in some movie but it’s what I tell myself.

One thing I’ve learned from transitioning is that as self concious as we are, most people are too busy with their own stuff and thoughts to even notice I’m wearing a wig and less then average make-up or indeed read my pronoun badge. It’s fun when I’m definitely passing and someone apologises for assuming I’m female when they hear my voice. It’s a bag of emotional stuff I carry around and there’s fear associated with it, but I can’t actually fail at being trans as much as other trans people try and make me feel like I am at times. I’d think I’d like to be able to pass effortlessly sometimes, but most of the time, I just make sure I’m being authentic to myself. What other people think of me is not really any of my business anyway.

Everything takes practise and we should aim for progress not perfection.

Amazing stuff! You are doing so well becoming who you always were meant to be!! Nicotine is a bitch, but you are strong! You got this!

I’m glad you’re doing this, it’s a very positive thing for your health. Kind and encouraging vibes being sent your way 🙏

Venting is part of therapy. I appreciated it. We are somewhat acquaintances and somewhat strangers which is quite similar to the therapist / patient relationship.

I overshare here and while its a journal it’s also because the people close to me have not been good to share with for the most part. They’re supportive, but most of them think I should have sucked it up and moved on by now. That’s not how dealing with trauma works. Not how the journey of being transgender works. Not how trying to come to terms with having neurodivergences works. Not how being in addiction recovery works. This stuff takes years and we all need people in our lives who have patience to hear us talk about things a lot over and over again. You’re welcome to vent and share as much as you feel like in my dms hun. I’m a good ear and I’ve been to dark places a lot in the past as well. Lots and lots of love.

Waiting for an appointment is torturous. In the meantime keep busy. Have a look on r/miniatures for inspiration.

You have nothing to apologise for. You’re human and humans reach out to other humans. hugs

It’s ok. You sometimes need to do it and it also must be hard not having a proper outlet of times. Even I’m guilty of it I have to admit because I bottle it up too much.

You are a wonderful person who also cares about people too and you deserve to be cared about as well.

If you need to talk or vent you can reach out to us.

Hey it’s cool to vent on here if you need to. The pitiful amount of therapy covered by Medicare is really some bullshit. One of my kids needed some therapy, has used all his appointments and now we’re paying full price until the end of the year. Really needs it, it’s not optional, and mental health is priceless, but at the same time there is a price on it that some people can’t pay. Constructive venting is therapeutic. Vent away, friend!

It sounds delicious and my reflux is flaring at the mere thought.

😍🤤

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Well, they have to name it something. I do wonder why they picked a roman emperor though.

My dreaded birthday month. Just cancel it already :(

I was like… huh? What? Noooo.

You too!!

Thanks, been doing that so far.

my council doesn’t seem to do diary logs for noise…

I too would use the grater as a shovelfork.

Looks delish.

Creamy sauce. drool

🙇‍♂️ we are not worthy

Looks lovely! Did you make the gnocchi yourself?

I wish my boss knew this.

My last job ran until 6pm which was a major deciding factor in me quitting.

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Try the original name of Canada - Ca Nada - that is, ‘nothing there’. Well, might be true if all you were looking for was gold, spices and slaves.

Heh, some words we use sound somewhat ‘indigenous’.

The Yinyila Nation of Mirning clans encompasses the ancient coastal seabed of the Nullarbor Plain Ngargangooridri

Don Don Don.

ELO, nice. So many great songs there to find for them. My dad used to play a single ELO greatest hits record all the time growing up. When I grew up, I randomly recognised a song (Telephone line i think), and I got a huge rush of nostalgia. Now on regular plays on long trips in the car.

You get used to the weight of steel caps after a while.

After using them and you got back to normal non steel caps everything feels so super light.

Pizza? I could go for a pizza!

Can you eli5 the difference between a shit ton and a fuck ton?

Congrats on sticking to the program. I only did 4k at work today and am feeling work fit, which is nice. Better hit up a decent walk this afternoon.