Have sad.
Cleaned my little balcony/sunroom and moved the plants around. That was a good job. I am hoping that I will medidate more now that space feels less run down . . But am so tired lately I just can’t get through my basic chores. And have bad anxiety about work this week (just overloaded for reasons beyond anyone’s control).
Gaaah. Just needed to vent.
Hugs mate, from a fellow not getting on top of things type person. We’ll get there! 💪🏼
Thanks.
Goodnight all. Glad to see the arse end of this weekend tbh. Such awesome weather and I still felt like it was one step forward and two back in my pursuit of domestic glory lol. At least I got most of the laundry done I guess 🤷🏼♀️ Catchya on the flipside 🤙🏼
Domestic glory be dammed… I spent the whole weekend avoiding all domestic chores and traipsed the city eating and shopping instead. I’ll pay for it later in the week, and had to scrounge through the unfolded laundry for work and school uniforms, and the house looks like a bomb hit it.
I like your style Eagle! In fairness to myself, I could spend the entire weekend cleaning and the place would still look like we’d been robbed 😆
Oh mine does too! Too many people and too much stuff. And pets! And the housework will always be there!
My team won a game. By a lot. 💙🤍💙🤍💙
I watched the game. Your team did very well.
Best I’ve seen of them in awhile.
🩵
Did you tip them?
Because I wouldn’t have 😂
Nah, I didn’t tip them sadly. Might need some evaluating in the future though if they can do it again.
Season is a bit weird, some teams having odd crappy weeks of play already.
I think it’s time for me to have a break from alcohol for a while.
I tried that. The trial separation turned into divorce. Alcohol and I bump into each other occassionally at parties and have stilted polite conversations, but we are no longer in a relationship. 10/10 Highly recommended.
It’s too damned expensive anyway. I’d love a drink, but I like not spending the money on it even more.
ditto. I took a break one day for “just a bit” and never went back. Have a glass extremely occasionally, but don’t miss it a jot.
24 days of Lent left…
e: Seven days left of lentish.
stress and optimism
Have been waking up at 4am almost every night over the past few weeks. Probably stressed about all the undone things, and the uncertainty of the future. I can manage this by breaking tasks down even further. Having 100s of pages of readings to do and five 2k word assignments is a recipe for overwhelm.
Tomorrow, I will be looking at my calendar and prioritising stuff. Also setting achievable tasks for the week. This is my time to prove to myself that I CAN do time management.
Also mindfulness. That involves listening to music, playing music, and engaging my senses.
Had a big cry today, which I hope will be the culmination of the rude night time awakenings. I’ve cried 19 times YTD, compared to 38 times last year and 25 times in 2023. I am SO glad I no longer have Wrong Relationship-itis.
Peace ✌️
Peace and hugs. You got this
You got this! I believe in you and sending you all my good vibes!
hugs,
I gave 100 bucks of frozen steaks and chicken and an unopened huge bag of japanese rice to the nice neighbours 🙂
Legend 🙌🏼
I’m over my uni fieldwork for sure (it’s such a long drive just to get to the start of this second section…) but what I do love is that it’s a good few hours off my device; and these past two nights I’ve been meeting my old school friend visiting from overseas, which has been a really really good balm for my soul…
…my lack of hydration earlier in the day is definitely catching up with me though. Owwww headache owwww… back out in the field for work tomorrow so I need an early night…
Yeah, I’m still in pain and keep tipping back into dehydration so nothing got done today and I spent it sleeping. Hate how this is so chronic and keeps relapsing. I just want to be doing stuff and living my life.
I should be learning about drawing and colour mixing but I can’t. There’s so much to doing art ‘right’ that I’m not really able to take in right now. Major analysis paralysis and lack of focus.
I’m wondering if I should just take the random tertiary colours and paint the crappiest still life ever just to get a feel for the process (and use these tubes up). But I can’t seem to make myself. Even the drawing step stalls. Drawing boxes and shapes is not really making sense to me because I spent so long untrained and just drawing contours by eye. Teaching yourself fundamentals later in life is hard.
Art is probably not the hobby to be attempting when lacking energy and feeling low. Whether you make something bad or just don’t do anything it’s easy to feel like a failure either way.
have you thought of getting colouring books and using those for painting practice?
one skill at a time, a colouring book can help you get brush skills
I have colouring books (and pencils because I can’t paint in bed) but I don’t know.
I feel like I’m just not doing well mentally or physically (unavoidable) and art has taken on some bad associations/pressure. It doesn’t lessen my desire to do it but it is messing with me.
This is not my biggest concern really. It just sucks that I can’t even do my less physical hobbies 🙃
so many hugs
when i went to calligraphy class a big part of learning was to have a project
so maybe write down some ideas for a project and start on that. Just do it. 🙂
and do look after yourself 😘😘😘
Thanks. The colouring book is a good idea.
I could either buy paint markers to be able to use on bed days or just try to take the pressure off myself about improving/doing a hard hobby
On my hands and knees on and off vaccuming the floor.
My fucking back hurts. I hate being this side of 30 lately lol.
When I have a job, I should invest in some proper workout clothes and go to the gym to strengthen my back and arms. Idc about looking like a sweaty, unattractive bum, I gotta do it.
can anyone recommend a genuinely good (jewellry) engraver in the CBD? I used to go to the old dude in port phillip arcade, but he stopped during COVID.
Ok where’s the severance discussion at
Edit: in non-spoilery news, i had to explain to the husband why i was howling with laughter when windmills of your mind started playing
omg…lol
severance definitely needs the muppet treatment 🙂
Helly is so obviously Miss Piggy
Mark is Kermit
Dylan is Fossie Bear
Irving is the Eagle
I have notes
Helena is miss piggy. Helly is not.
Mark is deffo kermit.
Dylan hits me more as Rowlf. Nominally inflappable but when he goes. He goesss. Alternatively he and Irving end up as Waldorf and Statler.
Milchik is Scooter. You can’t change my mind.i defer to your superior muppets knowledge
Seeing that muppet song made me think I’ve never seen the muppet show properly, only snippets here and there. It feels so familiar because it’s everywhere in pop culture. Looked it up, and it’s on Disney! Have added to my watch list.
Severance spoiler
Have had a few days to digest the season finale and I am satisfied it was a good ending. Questions were answered. Lots of unexpected blood. Accidental death of Mr Drummond felt deserved. I’m not happy about innie Mark leaving Gemma at the door, but the alternative was his death and loosing Helly, so it was inevitable. Michick and marching band rocked.
Hehehe i’m old enough to have grown up on original muppets. Saw that clip as a kid whilst sitting at my little wooden table, eating off my Skippy plate, ruined the song before it ever had a chance.
spoiler
Honestly, i hope there’s no s3. Prisoner ending fits perfectly
it’s already being written and it’s been oked by apple
Booooooo
so I got in thru the lemmy portal , otherwise the gateway is closed
So much to do today. Last day in this apartment and then off to the new house. 🙂
I expect to see LOTS of beach pictures!
there will be 🙂
and the marine reserve/wetlands park too
I can’t wait to take Ted on a walk to the beach in his cat pusher … lol
but i’m really going there to work and work as hard as I can , i’ll be a half shut in n/k
It’s so good. I haven’t been down the water today but the air smelled beachy when I headed outside. Even that is nice
yes it is and being near the beach is quieter too 🙂
Ooh exciting.
I too demand beach piccys :)
I’ve done too much doom scrolling this morning. Now that my morning coffee is kicking in I think it’s time to switch to my book. It’s one of the old fashioned paper varieties, and although the content is interesting having to constantly hold it open is tedious, the screen resolution is not that great and there is no ability to change the font size in settings.
Got band rehearsal in Dandenong today. Suuuuper long mission to get there but I’ve been putting it off for a week.
