So tonight I’m going to an event that I have never been to before; a poetry reading at a local pub by a modern author. They have an open mic as well, but I am not even close to confident enough to consider that.
But I do consider this my first step towards the culture and being a part of a community, after dabbling so long with prose and only reading poetry books since I was a small child. I think my first book, that I can remember, is one I still have: a book of Childrens Poetry (Lewis carrol, William Blake, etc) that contributed heavily to my love of the artform.
I have no idea why I feel so anxious and nervous, or why I want to back out. I guess avoidance and the fear I’ll make a fool of myself, despite not performing at all. Idk, I hope I can find a welcoming community within that space, but even if I don’t, I’ll still write. I don’t think I could stop writing, even if I wanted to.
I’ve done open mics, storytelling, and I can agree that mostly the crowd is welcoming. You may get a few self-absorbed shits that are only there for the strokes, and these can usually be ignored. Which really pisses them off so is worth doing on those grounds alone. Consider using a nom de guerre - at least at first. It’s an effective way to manage the feeling of threat to one’s personal identity. A ‘poetry name’ is very traditional so I think you are in good company if you choose to use one.
May I suggest practising speaking out loud at home. Maybe even record yourself. Think before hand what rhythm you want and which words you will emphasise.
I know people that have been active in the poetry and spoken word scene. I can get going to something for the first time can feel daunting, but you’ll be surprised how welcoming everyone is. You might find a place with a crowd you gel with and maybe you might even go up and read something.
One thing I noticed from doing standup is the bar is so, incredibly, low, and people are supportive of anyone giving things an earnest shot.
So tonight I’m going to an event that I have never been to before; a poetry reading at a local pub by a modern author. They have an open mic as well, but I am not even close to confident enough to consider that.
But I do consider this my first step towards the culture and being a part of a community, after dabbling so long with prose and only reading poetry books since I was a small child. I think my first book, that I can remember, is one I still have: a book of Childrens Poetry (Lewis carrol, William Blake, etc) that contributed heavily to my love of the artform.
I have no idea why I feel so anxious and nervous, or why I want to back out. I guess avoidance and the fear I’ll make a fool of myself, despite not performing at all. Idk, I hope I can find a welcoming community within that space, but even if I don’t, I’ll still write. I don’t think I could stop writing, even if I wanted to.
we love your work and i’d attend and clap very loudly had i not have work
I’ve done open mics, storytelling, and I can agree that mostly the crowd is welcoming. You may get a few self-absorbed shits that are only there for the strokes, and these can usually be ignored. Which really pisses them off so is worth doing on those grounds alone. Consider using a nom de guerre - at least at first. It’s an effective way to manage the feeling of threat to one’s personal identity. A ‘poetry name’ is very traditional so I think you are in good company if you choose to use one.
So many hugs.
May I suggest practising speaking out loud at home. Maybe even record yourself. Think before hand what rhythm you want and which words you will emphasise.
I know people that have been active in the poetry and spoken word scene. I can get going to something for the first time can feel daunting, but you’ll be surprised how welcoming everyone is. You might find a place with a crowd you gel with and maybe you might even go up and read something.
One thing I noticed from doing standup is the bar is so, incredibly, low, and people are supportive of anyone giving things an earnest shot.
I never performed, just lurked. Maybe do that until your nervousness goes
Nice work! That’s a good way to ease into things. Have fun, don’t put any pressure on yourself.