You have no idea how much that shit sets you back in life. While other kids are building skills and confidence and networking you’re stuck in survival mode and start out at a massive disadvantage.
Look at it like this. If you’re not able to thrive to that level yet and unable to provide whatever it is that they want, is it really your fault? What did they give you? It was their job to build you up and since that didn’t happen they don’t reap the fruits.
I get it logically and intellectually, I’ve read books and studies about how the brain physically changes due to trauma and how much that sets back children, and ends up having a detrimental effect on the adults they grow up to be.
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I remember telling my dad how much I wanted to get away from mum, and he didn’t do anything about it. I know why (she accused him of doing things to me he never did and I think he was afraid of her) but it still hurts so much. I almost can’t help but be jealous of my cousin’s relationship with him, how he was there for them when their dad walked out.
Maybe I remind my parents too much of each other and they don’t like me. Too much like mum for dad, too much like dad for mum. I didn’t choose to be here ffs and I’ve tried to remove myself too many times to count; but I guess the universe wants me here for some reason idfk
You have no idea how much that shit sets you back in life. While other kids are building skills and confidence and networking you’re stuck in survival mode and start out at a massive disadvantage.
Look at it like this. If you’re not able to thrive to that level yet and unable to provide whatever it is that they want, is it really your fault? What did they give you? It was their job to build you up and since that didn’t happen they don’t reap the fruits.
I think they get what they gave. /shrug
I get it logically and intellectually, I’ve read books and studies about how the brain physically changes due to trauma and how much that sets back children, and ends up having a detrimental effect on the adults they grow up to be.
more tw
I remember telling my dad how much I wanted to get away from mum, and he didn’t do anything about it. I know why (she accused him of doing things to me he never did and I think he was afraid of her) but it still hurts so much. I almost can’t help but be jealous of my cousin’s relationship with him, how he was there for them when their dad walked out.
Maybe I remind my parents too much of each other and they don’t like me. Too much like mum for dad, too much like dad for mum. I didn’t choose to be here ffs and I’ve tried to remove myself too many times to count; but I guess the universe wants me here for some reason idfk
Yeah sorry, not criticising. Just reinforcing that you don’t owe them anything.
I know :) I promise I didn’t think you were criticising me!! 💜💜
All good!
I bet Spud gives them more time and care they ever gave her.
Agreed