I get it logically and intellectually, I’ve read books and studies about how the brain physically changes due to trauma and how much that sets back children, and ends up having a detrimental effect on the adults they grow up to be.
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I remember telling my dad how much I wanted to get away from mum, and he didn’t do anything about it. I know why (she accused him of doing things to me he never did and I think he was afraid of her) but it still hurts so much. I almost can’t help but be jealous of my cousin’s relationship with him, how he was there for them when their dad walked out.
Maybe I remind my parents too much of each other and they don’t like me. Too much like mum for dad, too much like dad for mum. I didn’t choose to be here ffs and I’ve tried to remove myself too many times to count; but I guess the universe wants me here for some reason idfk
I get it logically and intellectually, I’ve read books and studies about how the brain physically changes due to trauma and how much that sets back children, and ends up having a detrimental effect on the adults they grow up to be.
more tw
I remember telling my dad how much I wanted to get away from mum, and he didn’t do anything about it. I know why (she accused him of doing things to me he never did and I think he was afraid of her) but it still hurts so much. I almost can’t help but be jealous of my cousin’s relationship with him, how he was there for them when their dad walked out.
Maybe I remind my parents too much of each other and they don’t like me. Too much like mum for dad, too much like dad for mum. I didn’t choose to be here ffs and I’ve tried to remove myself too many times to count; but I guess the universe wants me here for some reason idfk
Yeah sorry, not criticising. Just reinforcing that you don’t owe them anything.
I know :) I promise I didn’t think you were criticising me!! 💜💜
All good!