I should be taking this opportunity to do the tasks that are more difficult with kitty around but am still really not feeling good physically or mentally. Sitting around pressuring myself about a hobby that should be fun, putting myself through the wringer in the hope that doing it will help me cope with the rest of life. Because in my current state this hobby is the most do-able.
I’m feeling guilty about Melbcat. It feels like my bad health is letting her down and despite all my efforts I’m just having to wait for answers or help while watching it deteriorate.
so do things about your hobby that are easier. Like watching all kinds of art youtubes, watch everything to do with your hobby. Go to an op shop and buy every book on art you can and browse them.
I admit I’m really pleased I watched many many many hours of videos on the art, it gave me a depth of knowledge and I learnt many tips. It was definitely not a waste.
I’ve been looking at and saving many references and art tutorials, that is a low energy way to do it and is training my eyes to notice details. But it’s making my eyes much better than my hands, so it’s easier to see flaws in my inexperienced techniques.
That’s apparently a thing. Your work can suddenly look worse to you as your eye improves :/
I should be taking this opportunity to do the tasks that are more difficult with kitty around but am still really not feeling good physically or mentally. Sitting around pressuring myself about a hobby that should be fun, putting myself through the wringer in the hope that doing it will help me cope with the rest of life. Because in my current state this hobby is the most do-able.
I’m feeling guilty about Melbcat. It feels like my bad health is letting her down and despite all my efforts I’m just having to wait for answers or help while watching it deteriorate.
Sometimes simply resting is all we can manage, and that’s ok. Try to give yourself a bit of grace- always hard!
so many hugs
so do things about your hobby that are easier. Like watching all kinds of art youtubes, watch everything to do with your hobby. Go to an op shop and buy every book on art you can and browse them.
I admit I’m really pleased I watched many many many hours of videos on the art, it gave me a depth of knowledge and I learnt many tips. It was definitely not a waste.
I’ve been looking at and saving many references and art tutorials, that is a low energy way to do it and is training my eyes to notice details. But it’s making my eyes much better than my hands, so it’s easier to see flaws in my inexperienced techniques.
That’s apparently a thing. Your work can suddenly look worse to you as your eye improves :/
So stop looking at your old work!!
Or, look at your work as a progression of skill. 😊
I’m very efficient - I can hate it as I’m doing it 😂