mental health stuff - working stuff out by writing....
I had a lovely day out with friends but struggled to get any enjoyment out of it, and to focus on the moment (very brainfoggy). Made me realise I’m further down the depression path then I thought. I’ve had a few big stressful things going on that have made me anxious and down. But it’s gone beyond external - haven’t felt this disconnected and …grey… for a long time.
I came home and went straight to bed - just felt completely overwhelmed. Have managed to make dinner finally by putting on a podcast for company. And that’s rice and dal so I’ll get lunch out of it too. I need to plan out my work week - it’s busy and I like to get ahead of it on sunday but I’m just burned. No I can’t realistically take a mental health day or three right now either (for reasons, trust me)
So. this week I will:
Eat breakfast and lunch and at least a light dinner. I can boil an egg if needed
Sleep by 10pm and I will be out of bed by 6:30. If I can, go for a walk. If not, just stand outside for a few moments.
keep cutting back on sugar and lay off the alcohol for the week - neither help
Take meds and add in a multivitamin (I have a half a container I bought when I was getting over the flu).
god, that sounds exhausting. And I need to realise it is exhausting - so I will use my ‘spoons’ for food, washing, sleeping, moving. And the work I have to do. That’s going to be it this week.
I’m going to post here to try to keep track. Hopefully it’s just from stress/burnout and I can get back out of the hole with a couple of weeks of care.
I might join you… I’m pretty good with having breakfast/dinner after 20 years of being inconsistent with either. But I have a habit of coming home from work, eating dinner on the couch and then not moving from there until I go to bed. I have almost no friends in Melbourne so I spend my weekends doing much the same.
mental health stuff - working stuff out by writing....
I had a lovely day out with friends but struggled to get any enjoyment out of it, and to focus on the moment (very brainfoggy). Made me realise I’m further down the depression path then I thought. I’ve had a few big stressful things going on that have made me anxious and down. But it’s gone beyond external - haven’t felt this disconnected and …grey… for a long time.
I came home and went straight to bed - just felt completely overwhelmed. Have managed to make dinner finally by putting on a podcast for company. And that’s rice and dal so I’ll get lunch out of it too. I need to plan out my work week - it’s busy and I like to get ahead of it on sunday but I’m just burned. No I can’t realistically take a mental health day or three right now either (for reasons, trust me)
So. this week I will:
god, that sounds exhausting. And I need to realise it is exhausting - so I will use my ‘spoons’ for food, washing, sleeping, moving. And the work I have to do. That’s going to be it this week.
I’m going to post here to try to keep track. Hopefully it’s just from stress/burnout and I can get back out of the hole with a couple of weeks of care.
I might join you… I’m pretty good with having breakfast/dinner after 20 years of being inconsistent with either. But I have a habit of coming home from work, eating dinner on the couch and then not moving from there until I go to bed. I have almost no friends in Melbourne so I spend my weekends doing much the same.
You’ve got this! 🙂
so many hugs
you can post here anytime, we are all here for you 😘
Thanks mate.
Hopefully you have enough spoons to get back on track. I’m cheering you on!
❤️ having little sancuaries of friendliness on the internets makes a big difference. thanks
I’m joining you with the getting up on time bit. I notice I’ve been feeling quite empty lately, most probably due to list of life events.
Right there with you. Every small act of self care adds up