• Baku
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    26 days ago

    I’m feeling so ugh. The new kid moving in and the mentor moving out is all weighing on my mind. So many conflicting feelings. Anger + sadness + disappointment + resentment + guilt + pity + somehow partial apathy +feeling bad for all of the above + whatever the negative version of nostalgia is is a potent combo. I typed out my feelings before ultimately deleting because it was too long, but it didn’t help. Also went for a walk and tried to distract myself with YouTube and other things but that didn’t work either

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      26 days ago

      I keep a hand written journal. You never know, it might be just the thing. It keeps me balanced.

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        26 days ago

        Maybe. I’m not really into handwriting though

    • TinyBreak
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      26 days ago

      Make room for it all. I like to imagine all these “ghosts” competing for space inside me. If you fight to keep ‘em out you lose anyway, may as well let the emotions have their day.

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        26 days ago

        may as well let the emotions have their day.

        Hopefully that’s all they want. But I like that metaphor

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          26 days ago

          They can’t hurt you. It might feel like it, but it won’t actually leave a scar. Least that’s been my experience.

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      26 days ago

      That sucks so much that they didn’t wait for the new mentor to be there. Can you be super busy and away from the house to limit the amount of time alone with him until there’s someone there to mediate if needed? Obviously with your stuff locked away in your room.

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        26 days ago

        I’ll be going away for 6 days or so the day after he moves in and have enough on my Myki that I can escape if needed. I also took out a little bit of money in case I need to bail for a whole day