Seeing Dad tomorrow for lunch. I feel our relationship isn’t as good as it should be, but I’m scared of talking about my feelings with him.
I wish Mum hadn’t of damaged our relationship, we’re both still reeling from the effects she had on us. She has all of our photos, all of our memories, abused Dad and I. And now we’re trying to repair a relationship that shouldn’t have been meddled with in the first place. Poor Mum was traumatised, and passed it onto us. We’re both no contact with her, but Dad and I are still awkward. I mean, he’s still hesitant to hug me, because when he would, when I was a kid, Mum would accuse him of being inappropriate. She accused everyone of being inappropriate, and I had no fucking friends. Ridiculous, Dad never hurt me. Mum’s dad hurt her and me, but she still made me stay the night there.
Sigh, I just want a parent. I want my Dad. I guess I should just say all of the above and see how that pans out. If I can’t be open about my feelings with my own Dad, then nothing is gonna change and I’m going to keep feeling like I’m pointless.
and do it, take the risk , love is resilient, and as you say, he has been hurt too and probably wants this too , and knowing guys and older people probably a bit shy
NSFW ranty rants anxiety big sad BLAH
Seeing Dad tomorrow for lunch. I feel our relationship isn’t as good as it should be, but I’m scared of talking about my feelings with him.
I wish Mum hadn’t of damaged our relationship, we’re both still reeling from the effects she had on us. She has all of our photos, all of our memories, abused Dad and I. And now we’re trying to repair a relationship that shouldn’t have been meddled with in the first place. Poor Mum was traumatised, and passed it onto us. We’re both no contact with her, but Dad and I are still awkward. I mean, he’s still hesitant to hug me, because when he would, when I was a kid, Mum would accuse him of being inappropriate. She accused everyone of being inappropriate, and I had no fucking friends. Ridiculous, Dad never hurt me. Mum’s dad hurt her and me, but she still made me stay the night there.
Sigh, I just want a parent. I want my Dad. I guess I should just say all of the above and see how that pans out. If I can’t be open about my feelings with my own Dad, then nothing is gonna change and I’m going to keep feeling like I’m pointless.
Look. Of all people who understands what you’re going through, it’s probably your dad. Let him in.
so much love and hugs
and do it, take the risk , love is resilient, and as you say, he has been hurt too and probably wants this too , and knowing guys and older people probably a bit shy