Bit nippier outside than I expected it to be, but decent enough catching up with another friend. One more social engagement tomorrow but next week is completely empty of social events and a little scary because of whether I’ll get too stuck in my head again. Might reach out to see if a different friend is willing to catch up.
I am in the worst brain fog today continuing from yesterday evening, can’t remember the names of things quickly, keep a thought straight, or drum up much interest in anything. Maybe I’m not eating enough again. Or maybe I’m hiding from the big questions of life… car, job, family, home, purpose, health, blah. Blaaah
One more social engagement tomorrow but next week is completely empty of social events and a little scary because of whether I’ll get too stuck in my head again.
Sigh I feel this. My social engagements are work and tennis. I try reaching out to my friends here but it gets to the stage that its always me reaching out. At that point, why bother… and this all sorta feeds into my daily routine, i find myself eating pb&j twice a day, i know i know not good, but i just don’t have energy to cook and am too miser to eat outside more than 2-3x a week. sigh. hopefully my move next week and my trip back home will help change things up, it’s at least going to be worth seeing my parents’ reactions 😆
Yeah, I really hear you - I’m so sick of the isolation, and the inertia in finding new people. It’s too easy to hide under the safety blanket of maintaining little social interaction without some external change imo. I reckon the move and your trip home will really help you, especially that sense of connection and feeling wanted from healthy family members. It’s why I’m pondering taking a break from Melbourne to live interstate near family I like for a while, not that they’d be my be all and end all, but a bit more of a solid part of my life routine. Someone you can go round to for a cuppa any time, do stuff for them and vice versa, follows up on what you’ve been doing in life, someone to talk about the latest change in your neighbourhood, a sense of home…
E: I’m just into s2 e2 of Mr Inbetween and still loving it. It hits a great balance of dark drama, quietly moving characters, and lighthearted/slice of life.
Bit nippier outside than I expected it to be, but decent enough catching up with another friend. One more social engagement tomorrow but next week is completely empty of social events and a little scary because of whether I’ll get too stuck in my head again. Might reach out to see if a different friend is willing to catch up.
I am in the worst brain fog today continuing from yesterday evening, can’t remember the names of things quickly, keep a thought straight, or drum up much interest in anything. Maybe I’m not eating enough again. Or maybe I’m hiding from the big questions of life… car, job, family, home, purpose, health, blah. Blaaah
Food. Eat.
Yes’m. Am tucking into a big bowl of pasta and bolognaise as we speak and sitting in front of some Mr Inbetween
Sigh I feel this. My social engagements are work and tennis. I try reaching out to my friends here but it gets to the stage that its always me reaching out. At that point, why bother… and this all sorta feeds into my daily routine, i find myself eating pb&j twice a day, i know i know not good, but i just don’t have energy to cook and am too miser to eat outside more than 2-3x a week. sigh. hopefully my move next week and my trip back home will help change things up, it’s at least going to be worth seeing my parents’ reactions 😆
Anyway, you enjoying Mr Inbetween?
Yeah, I really hear you - I’m so sick of the isolation, and the inertia in finding new people. It’s too easy to hide under the safety blanket of maintaining little social interaction without some external change imo. I reckon the move and your trip home will really help you, especially that sense of connection and feeling wanted from healthy family members. It’s why I’m pondering taking a break from Melbourne to live interstate near family I like for a while, not that they’d be my be all and end all, but a bit more of a solid part of my life routine. Someone you can go round to for a cuppa any time, do stuff for them and vice versa, follows up on what you’ve been doing in life, someone to talk about the latest change in your neighbourhood, a sense of home…
E: I’m just into s2 e2 of Mr Inbetween and still loving it. It hits a great balance of dark drama, quietly moving characters, and lighthearted/slice of life.