Well… it’s in. The assignment is in - but I feel so thoroughly muted about it because it turns out my supervisor had to go through what I’d written with a lot of red ink pixels and rewrite a chunk of it. He wasn’t at all trying to put me down, if anything just help me so I’d get this across the line, but I feel like I have such a long, long, long way to go and I might have bitten off more than I can chew. I really feel quite low about how limited my brain capacity is compared to 5 years ago. Would love to have some kind of win this week to feel better about myself :(
For sure, I have been very lucky to have a supportive mentor, I just feel like I’ve failed him (and myself) a bit - but better not to dwell on it, onward we go, even if the end result isn’t really ground breaking or entirely my idea, I’ll have learned something from it I hope.
I really was hoping to go visit my aunt at the end of the month for a break + TLC but it seems like she might have other plans (lots going on in her life as well). I might head to my hidey hole in NSW if she isn’t available. I really would like to unplug for a bit
Well… it’s in. The assignment is in - but I feel so thoroughly muted about it because it turns out my supervisor had to go through what I’d written with a lot of red
inkpixels and rewrite a chunk of it. He wasn’t at all trying to put me down, if anything just help me so I’d get this across the line, but I feel like I have such a long, long, long way to go and I might have bitten off more than I can chew. I really feel quite low about how limited my brain capacity is compared to 5 years ago. Would love to have some kind of win this week to feel better about myself :(As counter-intuitive as it sounds having a supervisor being that interested in laying down a lot of red… is a win :)
For sure, I have been very lucky to have a supportive mentor, I just feel like I’ve failed him (and myself) a bit - but better not to dwell on it, onward we go, even if the end result isn’t really ground breaking or entirely my idea, I’ll have learned something from it I hope.
having a mentor is the most wonderful thing in the world 🥹
I agree, it’s a win.
two things are worse than having someone help edit
someone who gives praise and does nothing when it really does need help
someone who puts down for no reason when the work is perfectly fine
but i get it, it’s a bit of an ego bruise
hugs
so many hugs, sounds like you need a holiday
I really was hoping to go visit my aunt at the end of the month for a break + TLC but it seems like she might have other plans (lots going on in her life as well). I might head to my hidey hole in NSW if she isn’t available. I really would like to unplug for a bit