• StudSpud The Starchy
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    5 months ago

    The news has been so triggering, but I keep reading and commenting and getting into silly Internet fights like an idiot.

    personal and raw feelings>

    The endless conflicts, the brutalisation of minorities, the disgusting vitriol that internet boys perpetuate, the trolls, the abuse of women, the not listening to women, the pain of a lost childhood, the pain of lost 20s.

    I can feel my soul spiralling, my brain shutting down like a rusted motor, sputtering, coughing up a malaise that falls heavy upon my heart and my stomach. A suffocating veil over my eyes, so all I can see is the hate and the pain, and all I can feel is loss. I’ve grieved so much, about so much, how can I keep grieving? What more can I lament? Must I be so sensitive, so raw, as to feel a slight scratch as an open wound, gushing my energy out into a cold, deaf void?

    I must take a break, focus on something else entirely.

    • Seagoon_OP
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      5 months ago

      I must take a break, focus on something else entirely.

      yes

      I’ve stopped listening to news and news based podcasts and psych podcasts , it is taking a while to recalibrate my focus but I can already feel myself be less anxious

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      5 months ago

      I absolutely fell down a rabbit-hole the other week. It’s… not great. The feeling of helplessness does not very good things to my soul, so I have move my attentions elsewhere.

      It’s so easy to spiral into despair. Got to take care of yourself.