I woke up about 445am. Cats somehow know as soon as I wake up and I have to get up because they fuss about, start playing and the little kitten gets up in my face and sits on the laptop i have next to the bed I play youtubes on to lull me back to sleep. Little angels. Going to take my anti-anxiety/sleeping meds early tonight so I can get my circadian rhythm in line with their 5am wake time and not have to try and live everyday on 5 hours sleep.
I start every day now with an AA meeting. I found an amazing 24/7 online group and a wonderful sponsor from the US outta there. I thought I’d have trouble with the higher power stuff but I was obviously ready to begin a spiritual path to become a better person in the world and more helpful.
More volunteer work for trans people today. I’m embroiled in it again this week as a couple of people couldn’t work. Have tomorrow off, but back into it on Thursday. I’m on my way to a b cup now!!! Omg they feel so special and sacred. I’m in tears and euphoric. The extra oestrogen I’m taking now has also brought a bit of libido on but of course female desire is so much different to male testosterone arousal. I’m a fuckin girl for real!! Woohoo
Finding spirituality was so helpful to me. Sometimes it’s just nice to feel like I can surrender, I don’t have to control everything or have all the answers… I just have to have intention and faith and move forward with honesty.
Absolutely this. I need to stop thinking for myself and surrender. Seemed impossible to me a few weeks ago, but I’ve just allowed it to wash over me and check the results which have been pretty much instantaneous. Its pretty wild and I’m loving this freedom.
I woke up about 445am. Cats somehow know as soon as I wake up and I have to get up because they fuss about, start playing and the little kitten gets up in my face and sits on the laptop i have next to the bed I play youtubes on to lull me back to sleep. Little angels. Going to take my anti-anxiety/sleeping meds early tonight so I can get my circadian rhythm in line with their 5am wake time and not have to try and live everyday on 5 hours sleep.
I start every day now with an AA meeting. I found an amazing 24/7 online group and a wonderful sponsor from the US outta there. I thought I’d have trouble with the higher power stuff but I was obviously ready to begin a spiritual path to become a better person in the world and more helpful.
More volunteer work for trans people today. I’m embroiled in it again this week as a couple of people couldn’t work. Have tomorrow off, but back into it on Thursday. I’m on my way to a b cup now!!! Omg they feel so special and sacred. I’m in tears and euphoric. The extra oestrogen I’m taking now has also brought a bit of libido on but of course female desire is so much different to male testosterone arousal. I’m a fuckin girl for real!! Woohoo
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Finding spirituality was so helpful to me. Sometimes it’s just nice to feel like I can surrender, I don’t have to control everything or have all the answers… I just have to have intention and faith and move forward with honesty.
Absolutely this. I need to stop thinking for myself and surrender. Seemed impossible to me a few weeks ago, but I’ve just allowed it to wash over me and check the results which have been pretty much instantaneous. Its pretty wild and I’m loving this freedom.
I love hearing about your journey! Sounds like today was really special, and I love that for you!