Rice cooker purchased and brown rice made. I need to stop eating a dozen or more rice cakes every night as all that spread is making me spread. Late night snack will now be fried rice. Half a tablespoon of olive or coconut oil every night will be sufficient. I make it the vegeta stock and it’s got just the right amount of msg in it to give it that shiny chinese take-away vibe.

Been moody as fuck today. Cycle watch on my smart watch seems to check out, day 1 of menstrual cycle. One of my old colleagues reached out to me in such a beautiful fashion I had to get back in touch, but it’s severly opened the can of worms about my bad treatment from that workplace and now I’m completely spiralling and having violent fantasies and nightmares again. He couldn’t know. He also wants to introduce me to his family, cos they’re super interested in my transition. Look it up, I’m not a poster child for trans women, every person’s transition is vastly different anyway and I’m not much different to who I was before I realised I was trans, just a ton more emotional.

Is it wrong to want to name and shame the business? I don’t want to take action, cos I just want to get on with my life, but I’m constantly thinking of nasty things to write about them online so people are aware what a pack of serial sexual harrassers and complete enablers of assault and have one of the most unsafe places of business. I think I need a night of self care, but I know it’s not going to solve much.