Thanks cake, I appreciate it ♥️

Another layer of complexity is that I honestly don’t know if I would’ve accepted, had I gotten the message earlier. Obviously if I knew I’d soon lose the opportunity, I would, but otherwise, it would’ve taken a lot of rationalising and deciding, and maybe months before I would have made a decision. And I probably would’ve chosen not to meet or contact him

There’s some other familial stuff going on to where even now I don’t know if his intentions were good, what sort of person he was or life he led, and if it was a genuine request, or intended to cause drama. That adds a bit of guilt for thinking that way