I’m the same with any family related media. It just hurts. I know about that euphoric state you’re talking about. For me, they happen when I succeed at something I’ve been working hard at. I feel really good for a while, then the thoughts of “wish I had a family (that’s average) to celebrate with”.

All my victories are silent.

I lie to people when ask me about my family. I made up a story about how they are all overseas. Stops the weird vibe that happens when you tell the truth.