Idk if they’re just taking a while to make a decision, and I’m trying not to overthink, but this place emailed me this morning and said they’d get back to me this afternoon and they haven’t and I probably haven’t got this job and I’m trying not to freak out but omg I just want to stop teetering on The Edge of Homelessness and just have it be an Imminent Worry instead. Is it so much to ask to just be employed? I just want to pay my bills and maybe buy a coffee every now and then, I’m not asking for a deposit on a house or even a holiday abroad I just want to pay my rent without skimping out on food for myself. Sorry for the stream of conciousness but it is indicative of how anxious, depressed and stressed I am and I suppose this is an artform in itself but now I’m disgressing because I am still stressing so I’m compartmentalising these fears into rooms of my mind and bricking up the doors so I don’t break down.

I just wanna be okay ffs