Late night memory exploration, but I’m getting better at accepting the past. The lost friendships, the wasted time, the fights and the pain.
Ultimately, in a bitter way, I’m the person I am now because those experiences shaped me. I wouldn’t go through it again if given a choice, but I do (mostly) like myself now. Which is an improvement from hating myself wholly!
I guess, it’s okay to be upset at the past for happening the way it did, but dwelling on the “what ifs” and “I should have dones” only perpetuates the deep hurt.
I’m happy on my current path, and I’m grateful for the friends I do have now. I’m grateful for mein liebe and meine katze, and all the experiences I’ve had since 2019 onwards. I’ve travelled more, made new friends (without making them through my partner!) I’m changing career.
I guess I’m just writing this out to solidify that the past sucked, but my present and future don’t at all! C’mon neurons, form those deliciously new happy pathways, dammit!
late night ramblings
Late night memory exploration, but I’m getting better at accepting the past. The lost friendships, the wasted time, the fights and the pain.
Ultimately, in a bitter way, I’m the person I am now because those experiences shaped me. I wouldn’t go through it again if given a choice, but I do (mostly) like myself now. Which is an improvement from hating myself wholly!
I guess, it’s okay to be upset at the past for happening the way it did, but dwelling on the “what ifs” and “I should have dones” only perpetuates the deep hurt.
I’m happy on my current path, and I’m grateful for the friends I do have now. I’m grateful for mein liebe and meine katze, and all the experiences I’ve had since 2019 onwards. I’ve travelled more, made new friends (without making them through my partner!) I’m changing career.
I guess I’m just writing this out to solidify that the past sucked, but my present and future don’t at all! C’mon neurons, form those deliciously new happy pathways, dammit!