I got a COVID infection a while ago that permanently disabled me pretty bad. Bedridden, unable to move much, etc.

The thing that really helped me was relaxing and listening to music. That’s what I spent my days doing as I couldn’t do much else. I became a real music nerd and just loved the bliss of hearing music.

A little later (two years). I got another COVID infection — I was taking very strong precautions, and couldn’t see anyone. It turns out I got it from my doctor. Anyways, this infection caused some brain damage which has caused me to mostly loose the ability to hear. And now I’m still mostly motionless alone in bed, but I haven’t even got the comfort of sound or music. Just a mostly silent (tinnitus filled) world.

I’m so scared of getting covid again. But mostly I miss the world and my old life. Being stuck alone in bed with only the internet for company sucks. People tend to be arseholes online. I can’t help but feel I got “natural selectioned”. Me and my wife were planning on having kids soon. Now I barely see her and I’m going to slowly die in a nursing home. There are specific genetic vulnerabilities to illnesses, and natural selection works with them (see what Europeans coming to America did). And I got fucked here. COVID was my end.

  • TimewornTraveler@lemm.eeEnglish
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    2 months ago

    what a smug piece of shit. not just because you want to gloat at another’s suffering, but because you are fucking arrogant enough to this that you can help find a solution to a problem OP has had for years.

    Do you really think that OP is that much of an idiot that it took them two years to find some random asshole on lemmy to Google shit for them?

    You need to do some introspection, holy shit

    • kitnaht@lemmy.worldEnglish
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      2 months ago

      I have helped find solutions for lots of people’s medical issues over the years, as I study molecular biology.

      I’ve also found doctors often don’t care to do this research themselves. You too can help; as someone who cares about this stuff often times a patient’s best hope is a family-member who can suggest treatment paths for the doctor to look up themselves.

        • kitnaht@lemmy.worldEnglish
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          2 months ago

          Anti-vaxxers don’t trust researchers and their research.

          I don’t trust for-profit “doctors”, who look at you as a pile of cash to extract money from.

          While related to the healthcare industry, they are not one in the same.