Hello, I am 20F and have been texting this guy (21) I met for about 2 years now. We actually live close to each other. Itās about 30 to 40 minutes but throughout the time when we will plan a date, either he or I would cancel for me, it was due to insecurities (Weāll get into that later). He has expressed to me many times that heās likes me and gives me compliments but I am not gonna lie and say that I am not a cause as to why me and him arenāt together. I used to do s*x work on the side because of my financial state. He was coming on pretty strong on wanting to date but I didnāt want to hurt him in the end or lie to him if we did start dating. So I told him. The reaction wasnāt great, we didnāt talk for a while after that.
{He has told me the type of women he likes, woman that loves god, wants kids and marriage, goes to the gym all that good stuff. Me on the other is an atheist, donāt want neither and Iām 117lbs, so I donāt see how heās attracted, I just think of it as settling. He was adopted into a good family with money and Iām poor, literally nothing to my name. I went through his following on insta that shows me what youāre interested in and it was mostly girls that are not of my color. He doesnāt even follow men of my color, so why are you even pursuing this.It just doesnāt make sense.}
After I told him, he proposed we be friends with benefits, I shut that down and told him that sounds very degrading to ask me after he just told me he wouldnāt want his own woman doing such work. He apologized and were just texting on and off for a while. And then we were doing good as friends until we got into this debate (we think differently on most things so itās something we do a lot) this particular time, he started to talk about the type of woman that heās looking for (again) and I responded by saying that Iām not looking for a man or marriage or kids. I just want to be able to experience my life now when Iām young. He got into a whole rant, I stood on what I said then got blocked lol.
2 days later I got a text from him, he was checking up on me. I told him I missed him and he said he missed me too. I asked him why he blocked me he said (in his words) āI think i just liked u and i didnāt wanna get hurt. So I kinda said fuck it, imma just save myself the trouble.ā He apologized and we were good, yesterday he was venting about how lonely he is and how hard it is to find the girl that he wants. I tried to give him suggestions, knocked it all down. In his rant he even included me in it saying I was joking with him (I didnāt realize that he said that until way later in our conversation) so I wasnāt able to go deep into what he meant, but I wasnāt joking with him. After his vent we went back to talking normally but I probably said something I shouldnāt, I told him Iāll be moving soon to Fl, we live in the Northeast. He then says āShould I take you out at least once since I never met youā and I said āToo lateā he responded saying ācoolā and then after that he was just giving me dry messages after that and then left me in delivered. I wasnāt really serious about it, I shouldāve told him or put an ālolā so he wouldnāt think I was serious but damage done once again. I think Iām just meant to be single.
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My take is pretty simple. Guy sounds like a massive douchebag that I wouldnāt want to be friends with (it appears thatās not what he wants anyway) let alone to see me naked.
I wouldnāt sit next to this knob on public transport.
Move on. Heās not worth your energy.
Dating that kind of person is worse than being single, by far. In what youāve shown us heās displayed 0 interest or care in you, aside from sex. And, as you noted, the hypocrisy of judging you for sex work and then turning around and wanting an only sexual relationship is disgusting. On top of him being terrible, it sounds like youāre also just incompatible on a āwhat you want out of lifeā level.
From my perspective, if youāre having this much stress dealing with him now, itās only going to be worse if you start dating. Something I try to remember, dating isnāt the goal, enjoying dating someone is the goal. If you arenāt enjoying talking to him now, itās not going to get better by dating him.
You sound like you know what you like and what you want, and arenāt afraid to say it. GOOD. That is quite rare for someone that young, and itās no surprise itās intimidating to guys used to always get their way. DO NOT compromise. Do not settle, ever. A bad relationship is a thousand times worse than being single. Go live your life, follow your interests, meet new people, do new things. Those experiences are essential to becoming you - and youāre wise enough to know that. If youāre interested in dating, know that the right person will see and appreciate all that you already are and wonāt project expectations on you.
As for your āfriendāā¦ From what you said, I get the feeling he was stringing you along, enjoying the attention (aka validation) you gave him. He may even have hoped that youād eventually cave in and be intimate with him, which would explain why he basically cut contact once you made yourself clear it wonāt happen. In any case, he doesnāt value or respect who you are as a person. At least he was upfront enough to tell you what heās looking for, so you didnāt waste your time.
I think Iām just meant to be single.
Maybe, maybe not. Youāre young yet. Iād say to enjoy your life, doing whatever it is that you find gives you fulfillment (and figuring that out in the first place). If you find a guy or gal (or whatever you orientation) that is compatible with your wants, needs, and desires and brings you mutual joy, enjoy it for however long it lasts. There is no āThe Oneā out there for everyone. There are a number of āThe Onesā and the state of being a āThe Oneā could change as you both grow as people.
Donāt settle.
As for that āfriendā, he doesnāt in get āitā. He was just girlfriend/wife-zoning you. He didnāt want to be your friend, he just wanted to be waiting in the wings in case you changed your mind. Besides that, not only is he young too but he has no idea what he wants. He thinks he knows but it sounds to me like he is saying that he wants a one-dimensional woman that he made up, who has no agency, no personality, no desire of her own. He needs to try dropping his preconceived notions and get to know people without girlfriend/wife-zoning them so that he can actually get āitā.
I think Iām just meant to be single.
No. No youāre not. Donāt let that brain worm in.
Here are some other brain worms not to let in: not your brain wormās, your āguyāsā.
Hereās a list of red flags that should have you blocking and permanently removing this guy from your life:
- āthe type of women he likes, woman that loves god, wants kids and marriage, goes to the gym all that good stuffā vs. ā[I am] an atheist, donāt want neither and Iām 117lbsā.
- it was mostly girls that are not of my color
- he proposed we be friends with benefits, I shut that down and told him that sounds very degrading to ask me after he just told me he wouldnāt want his own woman doing such work
- He got into a whole rant, I stood on what I said then got blocked lol.
- āI think i just liked u and i didnāt wanna get hurt. So I kinda said fuck it, imma just save myself the trouble.ā
- he was venting about how lonely he is and how hard it is to find the girl that he wants
And so on.
Dudebro, as described, is an incel of the worst kind. You will not be happy with this kind of turd circling the toilet bowl of life. Donāt āsettleā and donāt ever let that brainworm in your head. NOBODY is meant to be single. (Not even the aforementioned turd; he could easily be not-single by just not being a dismissive prick.)
Maybe youāre meant to be single, maybe youāre not, 20 is pretty young imo to come to that conclusion. Especially with how youāre describing your interactions with this guy, that just sounds like it wouldāve been a train wreck of mismatched desires, interests, values, and expectations. I wouldnāt worry about it too much, live learn and move on.
