I only tried ketamine once, and it was fucking beautiful.

I’ve got a long running history of depression and anxiety. I’ve tried a few different antidepressants, but they all make me feel stupid, I don’t like taking them.

I’ve also tried most other drugs which don’t involve needles; cannabis, mushrooms, ecstacy, meth, 2ci (similar to acid).

So my friend had a tiny bit, we snorted it, and for a few minutes, everything was beautiful, calm, bright, relaxing. This wasn’t so much a “high”. It felt like all my troubles were a million miles away.

I’ve never felt anything close to that feeling on other drugs. I know my brain is capable of achieving that state again without drugs, but my ego is stopping me from achieving happiness.

Happiness really isn’t something to be sought out, it’s right in front of us, but we’ve convinced ourselves it’s elsewhere.