Incidentally, I started voice training a while before my egg cracked: “I’m only here to learn how to voice female NPCs better.”

Unsurprisingly, that was not the reason.

Taking it now! Feminize while you sleep <3

(Sorry to confuse you: “in the pipeline” does usually mean “coming soon”)

ufufufu 😍

Hard to say. I’m way happier and feeling human, but not seeing much in the way of hormone-induced emotionality (doctor seems pretty open to bumping up my dosage tho).

Still got the stare :3

I always used to think that moisturizer was kind of a scam. I’m sorry, and I take it all back.

My skin is turning into tissue paper! (And looking niiice <3) It’s soaking up pretty much anything I can throw at it. Now if I can just grow my hair a bit longer and shed those last 15kg or so…

Oh! Is that what it is?

I’ve been using my “girl voice” all the time now, and while I might be said to present somewhat androgynous, I’m perhaps not obviously trying to appear feminine. BUT, when I talk to people, they (particularly men) have started responding in much softer tones after they hear my voice. I thought they might just be imitating me, but could it be their “talking to women” voice? I hope so :3

This, for real though. You can often tell you’ve made it when people stop treating you specially.

By way of analogy: I live in a non-English-speaking part of the world, and was very self-conscious about my language ability. To begin with, everyone told me “you speak very well” (with an implied “for a foreigner”), but after a lot of practice that finally gave way to a curt “that’s wrong” whenever I slipped up. Now people generally assume I was born here to immigrant parents.

Gender-wise (although I’m nowhere near female-passing yet), I guess things like double-takes in bathrooms, or people being “gentlemanly” are good things to look out for?

Oh hello, are you me?

I’ve been watching Elena Darlingg recently, and got a bad case of “wow, she’s amazing. I’m never going to be as much of a woman as her. I’m not really trans anyway…” etc etc.

Mostly I just recognize this as an unhelpful thought pattern and go do something else for a while (and cuddle Blåhaj). Objectively, I know that these are thoughts that cis women have; it’s just imposter syndrome; I should be comparing progress against my past self and so on, but that really doesn’t help much when I’m feeling jealous.

Sometimes I do get euphoria though, and while I can’t call it up on demand, I do try to remember those times and that I’m doing this to feel good!

Starting HRT made a big difference: I’m in the pipeline now and just sitting around is still working towards my goal. I hope your therapist will get you sorted soon.

<3

You’ve met me, then :3

I just switched. It’s so nice cutting out the application and drying time twice a day. I was expecting the oily depot injection to be painful, but it wasn’t at all. Not sure what fluctuating hormone levels is going to be like, but at least I have gel as a backup.

My doctor doesn’t offer self injections, but I’d like to start at some point, especially once we’ve got the dose figured out.

Thank you <3

Joined in club activities that I haven’t been to in a few months. Not out there, but also not hiding anything. Got a lot of “I thought some new girl had joined at first, but it was only you!” comments :3 (This is a 95% male club, so I guess they noticed something!)

I’m taking that as a win. I wonder what they’ll say this time next year?

That must have felt great; I’m so happy for you <3

Hehe. I’d figured out that not every guy wanted to be a girl pretty early – that’s probably one of the reasons I was repressing so hard. But when I found out that actual trans people didn’t always know, and you could just… be trans if you wanted, that broke my brain :3

I think it’s OK to be selfish, so long as that means prioritizing self-interest over that of others, rather than being greedy at others’ expense. And transitioning does not cost anybody else anything: you don’t owe it to anyone to be anything other than yourself.

After all, nobody is going to look out for your well-being as diligently as you yourself.

BTW, the comic in the fist panel is this one.

Sweeet! That hair rocks.

Niiice <3

Oh yeah and I’m getting my hair dyed this week!

Ooh, what color?

… TWO months HRT (ah, ah, ah) …

So I got my GID diagnosis at last! I’m now certified Trans, for what it’s worth. Switching from DIY to prescription injections next week, yay ~

Plus a surprising (welcome) result in the Japanese election. Hope for marriage equality in the near future?