Iāve spent my life wasting my time, rationalized with words. In terms of my own human life, Iāve reached for a vague sense of meaning, purpose, significanceā¦ and value. At least, value of distinct characteristics of instances relatable THROUGH those characteristics measured.
I was lost in the specifics, in the pedantic cycles that WANT to break into an answer that stops the constant motion that becomes meaningless once the reason is realized.
Knowing is what I mean by realizing, butā¦
Reality isnāt so tangible. Our hands only grasp so much, our eyes can only see a small bitā¦ at a time. We make ourselves from what we experience. Some define those experiences deeper with another (word/meaning-boundary) to mean themselves, and they say theyāre what they DO.
But at our limits, we are struck by truth that sensitively lies, as an experience in sleep as dreams, some of which we remember. But death is more than what we are able to remember, itās to stand, for at least a second.
Like Ace in one pieceās marine fort arc, after he gets saved. For those few minutes, he lives. But he dies defending whitebeards honor, a lesson luffy learned much earlier with the pirates he attacks as a kid when shanks doesnāt respond to the empty threats they represented when they insulted him with irrelevant words.
I ask a question and I ask that you write. It can be as jibber-jabber gibberish as the words I scream like this. As I hear myself, all I want to tell anybody and EVERYBODY else, whoās not me:
TLDR:
a simple exercise meant to be reworded:
Ask yourself, who you are, And donāt answer.
Voices will come.
Listen.
Donāt answer.
But if you do answer anywaysā¦
Donāt hate the screams. Donāt hate any of the answers. Not even the ones you search for.
Maybe youāll eventually recognize that the moments your thoughts escaped your āpeace of mind,ā happened. That youāre not forgetful or cursed in any way, that life is WHAT IT IS.
BEAUTIFUL.
I AM SORRY. PLEASE respond to the question title however you deem fitting, even if it isnāt saved forever, it will have happened now. And the mystery of now is enough reach towards, together.
But hatefulness is the only thing I see in the reality of the governments that hold us. Black people in America, Muslims in India, sinners in Saudi Arabia.
Sins relocate, they never die. And reading all of Frank Herbertās Dune series has made me naively sure of the ancestral memories that lives in our stomach. There lies our truth of love.
Iām sorry. What do YOU value? This is the internet, and I hope you can tell I did not generate this artificially lol. Check the account history, Iām a dumbass. Please do not ban me.
What do YOU value, in reality? In and out of life, of all of any?
Iām sorry. I canāt help but believe in naive hopes of understanding, of widespread passion that can be shared with at least, all people. Dogs love unconditionally, donāt they?
Someday, I wish. Just trying to figure out how I can make it easier, up the chances maybe. But today youāre worth the money you make. Simple as that, so meanings donāt matter. Makes it easier to be individual, butā¦ belief is supposed to be separate, right? Whereās love supposed to lead to?
Weāve all got a voice inside, why canāt we just let them RUCKING TALK TO EACHOTHER? Is that really so insane? Fine, go fucking support your stupid fucking circlejerk communities and vote for trump or refuse to vote at all for the sake of your pop media interpretation of Palestine. Genocide? Yes. Will you vote for suicide because of it?
You tell me. Sorry. Not you, specifically, Iām sorry. But anyone reading, what are you trying to do? Donāt respond, I donāt fucking care. Iām not worth it. Let go of what you want for just a second, feel what you suppress, stop giving in to pain.
your very poetic in your writing, is this a profession?
value is like time or any other man made illusion, so while i did hit rock bottom it gave me time to think and read and live out an existential crisis and i am better for it.
I am sorry. In rereading, I see my self centeredness. Finally.
I am not able to be professional in this, according to the top comment, I think. I will try still, in whatever ways I can, and maybe one day find a bridge to give me the space to explain my beliefs.
I used to have strong beliefs, but therapy showed me the scars that I carry into every decision I make as anxiety unknown. I know now, at least.
Words capture feelings that our stomach gurgles. I am sorry to not respond to you for so long, I try to communicate but the constant loop has changed direction and now every little bit is different and I need to hear all of it because I AM insane.
IGNORE THE ABOVE^^^ except the sorry?
I am grateful to you. I do not know you. But I am so glad to talk to you. I canāt stop feeling like a monster now.
ANYWAYS, nimona on Netflix is a very beautiful movie. I cried 3 times now, watching it twice. If youād like to be friends, I am always here. Anybody, right now, this is my username. Itās here as me. This post is me. If I get banned, this dies. I am glad to have had this post.
Artificial intelligence is plateauing?
The human population is reaching a necessity for culling. We will die. Artificial intelligence, global warming, and partial political dysfunction leading to totality of power? Totality of power already exists, political dysfunction will lead to riots we will never start orā¦ what?
Is there another side to this? Where will we be 10 years from now? Will health care still be tied into employment? Honestly, I need to look into how that helps a business and why. Will homes still be empty yet enough to house every homeless person more than twice over?
Bureaucracy, deliberate consideration.
Iām sorry. I am past drunk. I deserve every downvote and more. Iām justā¦. Crying. Thatās all this is. Not poetry. Not any consistent logical progression or round trip, justā¦ idea after idea, separate and lost but also pure in solitary conception.
Asimov and Herbert both agree that humans would and will use artificial intellligence to commit genocide of the non-aristocratic. All of us peasantry. The question, in truth, is who will make the choice and why will they make their selection? What will their parameters be?
Thereās history, and there are generations of billions of humans that shaped it. Whyd they do it, what did they spread it into, and where are we now? What is it that provides the true future worth and value?
I have Debian. I use i3. I love vim and shortcuts, and emacs. I wanted to learn nonstop, I got pretty good at emacs. Used it for about 10 months, laptop died and I got a desktop. Iām just a lazy piece of shit lol when it comes to that I guess. I lay down all the time. But thatās not living. I want to live.
I am worthless. I am sorry. If I get banned now. I hereby accept it.
I hope Iāve proven your description of poetic wrong by now haha
you are passionate about writing and expression so fuck if people fail to see it thats on them.
sorry this is what your going through, i am in a similar struggle with mental health, therapist says its cptsd from an awful childhood. i know its difficult but i am glad to see you can express yourself so well. i would like to go back to the original post and say while i have gone on to see value as meaningless previously i guess that was a simplified answer maybe even dishonest: value is inherent in all, but it is also unquantifiable you have value but you and i and everyone else are so nuanced and finicky that the human brain would be unable to conceptualize this type of value but thats not to say we have no worth, to me this conversation has been incredibly interesting and for that you have value and maybe like wise to yourself.
i am sorry to say but nope, i will have to look out for your user name, not a poetic but i am an avid reader and love creative writing.
I love you, I thank you, you help. I have recently come to accept I have a fear of anger. In general, especially my owns, and rooted in past fear of my fatherās anger. Past understanding, just rage allowed.
Anyways, hereās a scream I wrote heās not ready for, and I canāt send for fear of misunderstanding and/or rage I know logically is missing key elements required.
Relatable. Sorry your father is this way I hope you can find a way to speak civilly about these issues if that is what you want