I’ve been having a dought. It’s a small nagging one but it’s there.
I’ve been working a lot with my therapist on self hate issues, but I can acknowledge them.
I realized I can never really be in any kind of physical relationship with somone because of this. I’m repulsed by myself and perhaps my asexuality is just a result of that.
I wonder if I am so repulsed by myself that the idea of me being with anyone is rejected because of the “me” part and not how I feel towards others. Where some may think “I want to kiss that person” I can’t bare the thought if subjecting somone to me in that way. And therefore the thought is gross.
Does anyone else deal with this? Any advice?
That one would have a lot of volunteer opportunities. It’s be a good way to network and get a sense of what you’d be getting into with far less pressure.
Though I notice some volunteer roles are a lot more demanding these days. Keep a lookout and eventually one may come along that work for you.