I always assume that my brain is structured in a way that at least 5% of people could relate to my general thought processes, but it turns out that some of my experiences of being a human are really just a “me” thing. I’ve often told myself that I’m just like everyone else, and that all of my personality traits are explainable by a mishmash of stereotypes and systemic influences. But I guess there’s more to it than that, and I’ve been selling myself a bit short.
I can’t get over the fact that due to how thoughts work in our brain, we can’t even be certain that when we are looking at something that is red, we are seeing the same color. How our mind interprets the shared data we get from external stimuli isn’t necessarily shared itself. And we can’t really describe color in any way other than with feelings, or the hard data of physics and wavelengths and how light interacts with the eyes (again, tho, not how the mind interprets that data). There isn’t even a word for what I am talking about other than “color.”
At some point in my life my color perception changed completely, which caused a minor crisis of wanting to paint instead of coding. (Still kinda unresolved 🫨) Suddenly colours gained some kind of 3d depth and feel.
Unfortunately lemmy is drab 😩 even with various apps they are too monochrome
If I could I would color my text for each paragraph or use some kind of css hacks
But nooo you all love the boring drabness for 10% better readability
Partial solution: make my own ios app with my degrading coding skills. No.
Fork lemmy for colordivergents. double no.
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Hence I often land on chaotic no rules deep web murky social media site that has great colors and even seasonal themes that change the whole page and even adds songs to each seasonal event. It’s very fun to browse and tasteful art wise. Resembling a social grafitti mural almost that would be the ideal form.
However it isn’t very healthy as its sister, same tech site that is also somewhat colourful is about watching people die IRL and filming it and you know some things and users (some literal killers) seep through just because we are digital neighbours even though we all hate it 😩
There is a word in philosophy of mind—the qualia of redness.