Yes, we agree completely. I just meant the word “wanted” is pejorative. You can intend something without necessarily wanting it.

When he was little my son broke the growth plate off of his arm at the wrist. It was essential that it be pushed back into place. The doctor needed me to hold him still, to hold his arm still as he pushed that bone back on top where it belonged.

My son had a lot of pain. I didn’t want to hold him still while he endured that pain. But I intended to. I did it.