I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
This question is probably best posed in [email protected] more than here, but in short, some do, but it’s rare. It’s far more common to be pretty uncomfortable with our old names
If you want to start a discussion on the specifics of why that is, please use a dedicated community rather than asking a trans person here to get in to it