As in your never understood by anyone, you don’t fit in anywhere, nobody cares about you, you have no one in your life, no friends, no connections, nothing, all the common advice doesn’t work for you (i.e. distract yourself, take a walk, go to therapy, etc.), you have terrible luck, you can barely find a job, your broken inside, your mind is constantly rotting, you can’t do anything properly, your stuck in a shitty society and or an abusive household, etc. how do you survive? How do you properly bottle everything up without bursting or going insane in a situation like that?
I’ve found that small local gyms or martial art schools to be the most welcoming environments if you’re interested in those things and willing to put time into the practice. The people don’t really care about the preexisting societal structure as the school dictates it’s own and everyone is there for the same reason. There are still some shitty groups at predatory institutions so have to watch out for those.