How not just give up? There is nothing left, no viable career options, hobbies are pointless because there’s just no improvement past certain point anyway, no alleviation to the fucking constant hurt that’s AuDHD. And nobody gets it, nobody.

Any insight, other than “seek help”, would be welcome right about now.

  • garbageMaster@programming.devOPEnglish
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    2 months ago

    It’s not just run of the mill anhedonia. It’s a removal of an entire support structure.

    You nailed it. Now, with half a life-time of trauma, masking and dead-end jobs, it seems there’s no getting those interests back.

    if we try to talk about it people will re-orient what we say into their own framework and start making false equivalencies. “Just do X.” It can be a good-natured attempt to understand, or a dismissive invalidation. Either way it gets exhausting.

    This right here. So tired of trying to talk to anyone not on the spectrum about it anymore.

    If it wasn’t for my spouse I doubt I’d be here. I don’t fit. 40+ years of trying to be a square peg, scrambling to fill in all the corners on demand, has me drained. Nothing I do has ever been enough. I’m tired.

    Yeah, hanging on not to dissappoint loved ones, is how I’d put it. Feels all kinds of wrong.

    I wish you the best. Truly.

    Thanks, to you too.

    • 97xBam@feddit.onlineEnglish
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      4 days ago

      You and @[email protected] get me so well. Thanks for the conversation. If you want anyone to talk to about it, you can hit me up.

      Proof: I made this following post while going through it yesterday. I think the pointlessness is the hard part. When there feels like there is absolutely nothing in your control, why even bother. It’s the adult version of an autistic kid’s, “Don’t touch my stuff without my permission!”