I didn’t quit as I said I would, but that’s mostly been due to my sheer lack of motivation. I’m coming off of a really bad low point a few weeks ago that’s had me making amends with my wife, returning to therapy for CPTSD yadda yadda . . . I’m honestly just exhausted and do not feel like I can climb that hill.

That said, I’ve had some small victories. I haven’t completely quit, but I’ve gotten better at remembering the terrible smell before I light up, which has helped me cut down a lot. As a CPTSD survivor, I’m pretty practiced at working with the unconscious, so I find meditative visualization very effective (when I can be bothered). I can recommend a particular mp3 if there’s interest.

So since I’m writing this, I guess I’ll make another extra strong attempt tomorrow, but no promises.