I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a week ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
I would suggest joining a local group that interests you. Try something new, like dancing or learning a new language. We are the product of our habits. So if you dont change your habits then your course for the future remains the same.
There are many hackerspaces, language exchanges , gyms , theathre groups etc . you just need to put yourself out there. Be your authentic self and look to form friendships before any romantic interests.
You can do it ❤️